First Saturday by myself

Breaking a fight
In a struggling sight,
Exhale sadness away
And inhale brand new day.
Killed broken love
With judgment above,
Call mercyfull hand
From eternity land.
Falling and falling in gap,
Singing ,calling,
Crawling and crawling on lap-
Heavvy strolling,
Full of tight spred metal harmony strings,
Broken cut scretches on a bloody old wings,
Mercy me,who?Mercy me, when?
 I am hidden spring bird in a cozy warm den.


Rocking the chair,calming the nerve,
Walking on top of the metal sharp curve
Talking it out,Turning around,
My inner space freezing,
While love slightly breathing,
Its smells blows tender,
My soul surrender.
Sweety, my sweety, don`t make me feel pitty,
Dove, my dove, don`t burn me in stove,
I`ll be hot, hurt and happy,
My temper`ll turn snappy,
Clean temple is closed,
White scary thin ghost
Behind chubby shadow,
Hide me,spring meadow.


Dazzling, zealed,tasty cup of red wine,
Take pain away, it`s the matter of time,
Dissolving in your, pure-blue lake,
Mixing riped fruites in a blender for shake,
Swallowing salty -sweet bitter white tears,
Watching reflection of light in iced beers,
Swimming, cold water, give me the strength,
Bathing, hot vapor,fall down your length,
Dancing latino- hip hop in the bar,
Singing and chasing the smell of tartar,
Playing guitar-saxophonic duet,
imagining white old Chaykovskiy ballet,
Painting, the colors of true alive story,
Of cursed alive destiny telling me -sorry,
Take me the way I was made by the Lord,
I will teach you guitars major- minor accord.


Legs upsidedown, arms in the air,
My body will grawn and grawn while I  bare
The burden of big unconfessed sexy sins,
My angel flew out and hid in  old bins.
The air, fresh air of love and compassion
Landing on me at the end of confession.
Mercy me, mercy me, dug myself under
Sick layers of passions unbreakable bridge,
Unfullfilled dirty feelings  in unfinish night session,
Locked up in a huge heaven`s punishment fridge.
Hotter and hotter, goose bumps disappeard,
Under my cracked from long suffering skin,
Give me your love inside out , my dear,
Hear through silence, hear wild scream.


I feel your tender breathing on a sharp and breesky edge,
Kin tension is increasing and makes my soul pledge.
My dear, on the ruins,torn pieces of dark grieves,
Will build the joys of Purim-bright colors Jewish gifts.
Don`t judge me in a hurry,give wide warm hand and pray,
The fastest red ferrary speeds up and maks us stay
Together for a minute on slippery wet trail?
My tears`re dropping, seen it?Uncover senses , snail.

Циле

Циле.

Ушла в глубину бесконечного свода,
Душа, пролетая сквозь тьму и туман,
Разрешив вечный узел еврейского рода,
В высоту испарялся  нависший турман.

Не найдя на земле камень истины вечной,
В сомненьях, тоске проклиная   судьбу,
О, дайте прощенье  душе бесконечной,
Идущей к тебе, Боже мой, как в бреду.

О Боже, крещенье моё не отвергни,
Вмени мне мытарства в Твой вечный покой.
В  бездну страданий тело  не ввергни,
Я буду во веки в грядущем с Тобой!

Прости меня,  Боже, клянущую имя
Святое твое, неведЕньем греша,
Как в древних развалинах Иерусалима,
Все предки мои забывали Тебя.

Прости им и мне, всех потомкам Авраама,
Завеса застлала больные глаза,
Разруха покрыла святилище  храмов,
Возьми наше бремя  Адама -  греха.

Мария, молю, не остави нас , Мати,
Безумьем бродящих, заблудших сирот.
Благослови нас покровом Дитяти,
Рождённым в яслях Вифлеемских ворот!

Final Page

When you`re empty , unneeded,  seemed useless for crowd,
When the shame of mistakes force poor soul to dout,
I feel you are gone to the temple of dead,
Where Mozart performs La minor minuet.
The smile and the scream tempo- major duet ,
The kiss and hard hit soak memory`s sweat,
While boys in your hands in baby pijamas,
Crying about the  DUI   dramas.
Doctors near delivery bed giving you Anthony,
Yellowish spred on his gentle white skin looks like lotion,
Your movement was in a sleepy- shake motion,
Drowsy eyes can not focus on us,
Wounds on veins,dirty seeped low bass,
Lies inside out where ever we go,
Hospitals, therapists, jail,dear, no,
Blurred  grey smoke  from the heroin spoon-
Devil`s wide smile through reflection of moon,
Sunny and breezy on the ocean shore,
You are steeling my money for damn liker store,
Crawling wet drunk on a hospital bed,
Seems to me know that you were dead.
Kissing and hoping, praying through fight,
Anxiety scream over sexual night  ,
Barbeque,dinners with beers and cheers,
Gallon of dropped  into emptiness tears,
Take with you all,locked up in the cage,
Give me my heart, I finished the page.

Sleepless night

Sharp stone, Heavy stone, black stone on my heart,
You`re shining on the thrown,teared, wrinkled soul`s gut.
Blinking shadow, purple shadow,ashy shadow in  a silver rain,
Bombing echo, marching echo, cruel sounds, abusive drain.
Needles` dope, bloody robe,smell of whiskey, pills in a pile,
Seizures are risky,tomb is risky,death is risky on a black-white tile.
Mercy, baby, lovely baby,don`t let my insanity grow fast,
Embrace my soul without goal, be with me, stay with me at least for a while.
Take me ,dear, here,near,don`t wait for my prayers and verses, I`ll die,
If you disappear, don`t let him come near,
He`ll kill me in madness and you`re gonna cry.
Bless me, my angel, you are shiny and fragile,
Forbid cruel demons to drive me insane,
I fear, , I fear, I fear  , my Lord,
to stay under judgment  , hear me hear,
to look at you face and feel metal sword.


Bom, bom, church metal bell,
Call,call, they`ll make me feel well,
Quiet, quiet down and up,
Breathing, breathing,death on the top.
Mercy, mercy, full of sins sack,
Colder,colder, ugly old rack,
Save me ,save me, angel of life,
Help me, help me , not to sank, dive,
Mother, Mother, Marie- full grace,
Father, Father, begginer of days,
Let me, let me ,bring children up,
Get it, get it, help me to stop.
Blessing , blessing on kind wide sharp lips,
Cursing, cursing, poisoness sips,
Crying,crying for you and for me,
Dieing, dieing, forgive me, my gee....

Warmer,warmer, you are in my space,
Calmer, calmer, thanks God and his grace,
Dear,dear, tell me you`re nice,
Hear,hear, the chance on the dice.
Scared, scared, my soul in the shade,
Freely, freely, fly out, you`re made
To serve and to comfort sombody who cares,
About eternity glittering shares.

After depression

Early Sunday morning,
Empty dreams in bed,
Black coffee sound pouring
As silver rain on land,
My scielent lip`s numb feeling
Spred out ,hurt the soul,
Lord,give me courage dealing
With path to rich Your goal.
I step on swampy puddles,
Sanking in the dirt,
Remembering tight cuddles,
 Brief hanging pause was short,
Recalling how happy I used to feel when he
Got sobber for brief moment,
And let me call us -we.
Forgive me,broken patience,
Like spine from skeleton,
Does let confused intentions
Poke  over sharp green thorn.
I don`t deserve a dollar,
Cover me, new fate,
Turn over my bipolar,
And let me simply date.


I`m gonna kiss your eys with tender
Wet humble smile on happy face,
My dear guest, you will surrender
Dissolving in a messy space.
I`m gonna kiss your lips hot ,wild and slow,
Befor the dawn`s horizon glow,
Before the sun warms up the land,
My rythms with music from the band
Will make your palms soak up in sweat
And turn away big fog-regret.
Why am I  so open-hearted?
My feelings were alredy darted,
With arrows a while ago,
I should of made him simply go,
Before deep wrinkles and big forms
Grew over simple dating norms.
Please, be with me ,when I am crying,
You`re far away while I am dieing,
From freezing cold, your short straight talk,
Will give me analgetic shock.
It is one thirty in the morning,
Can`t sleep from frozen bitter tonic
Which called divorse of separations
Among depressed and teased split nations.


You are going, I am running,
You are cycling, I am cunning,
You are egipcian, I am from  Ukraine
You kiss like magician, I can not complane.
You are workhogolic at day and at night,
My spouse - alkhogolik, my road is tight.
You drink scotish whisky a shot at a time,
I sip pieces risky, with a drops of the lime.
You know a lot of path and dark drama,
I bearly learned the name of your mama,
You say what is neede, I talk like a bird,
My mouth `s too wide, and toung far from short,
Forgive me, my dear,I  may be too much,
With hot crazy feelings, my poetry`s touch
Will go through you over fears with tears,
Add up at the bar couple dark coldest beers,
Be happy, my baby, I miss you too much,
Gift me tomorrow red roses bunch!

First Day Of Spring

Dry words on a top of the silencing hill,
Clouds of feelings-eternity`s drill,
Empty sweet phrases, dreaming in words,
Accomplished work out- insanity swords,
Smoking two cigs in a row with tea,
Plying the badminton near the tree,
Breathing on  earth, thinking in space ,
Writing the verse, praying with grace:
Magdalina Marie, daughter of sin,
Remember me , spread  small goose bumps on my skin ,
When I fall with intention in front of the world,
Sing with me pure sol minor accord.


Hot fire ,red fire, blue  fire on  rain,
Tall trees, spring trees, sting bees, young train,
Green grass ,wet grass ,dew grass with stain,
Strong wind, wild wind, spring wind  in vein.
My tears,my tears, watered the trees,
My prayers , hard prayers left out teased,
One hope, true hope, get deep inside,
Saint angel, white angel, grab out pride.
Shadow,your shadow covered my space,
Rains hard in green meadow in the mid of the days,
Silverish, silverish path on the sky,
Rainbow, rainbow glitters- Your`re mine.

Believe, Hope, Love

Believe ,when the  wind brings the sand from the bank,
My eyes, soaked in tears, to clean it, I sank
In blessed graceful mercy, invisibly falling
On sinful sharp voices, whenever they`re calling.

Hope, when the ground moves up to the sky,
Stay upside down and constantly try,
Slight hesitation will force the spirit to fly,
Earth`s gravitation will make you ask -why?

Love, when it hurts from the head to the toe,
Smile through the pain, don`t tell yourself-No,
Spread warm wide wings , giving kindness away,
Wake up, shining pink dawn, we`ll glorify May!

evening

Hugging my pillow,
Touching the phone,
Connections inside,
Known, deeply unknown,
Candle`s deem light near icons with hope,
Cursed with a hidden big portion of dope.
Tell me, The Mother of Those who Sorrow,
Can children of earth humbly, rarely borrow
Truthful relation, sincere incite,
Can we be real and feel what is right?
Do true feelings exist or the story was made
 To make us desire and weeping and wait?
My angel was silent, flew out and cry,
Whispering prayers through starry black sky.


Full cup inside temple of life,
Sip small portion,
Wide ocean, ready to dive,
Stronger motion,
Green bottle of joy in the space-
No conscience,
Reflects in the broken long days,
Lost emotions,
Dark glass  of bitter- sweet  love,
Nauseous morning ,
Feel down don`t see light above,
 Cause alcoholic,
Full pan of forgiveness for me,
Weighs down  heavy  ,
To carry the burden of we,
Tougher  Navy.
Hot desert.I met you, my stranger,
Don`t feel any kind of a danger,
Need water of tender attention,
To release inside muscles tight tension.

Sunday

My dear, my dear,Can`t sleep, do you hear?
I called, inside voice getting stronger and stronger,
It whispers, that soul wants to be with you longer,
My dear, my dear, don`t get scared, your fear
Touching deep through the distance,
And turn down resistance.
What`ll happen,we`ll see, let it be, let it be,
What`ll happen ,we`ll bless, pray with saints more or less,
What`ll happen-thick fog, disappeared prorok.
Pray for me, pray with me, pray for us, russian  "nas'.
Find the piece,live today, may the Lord bless your way.


Mercy me, mercy me tripping on step,
Embrace in a big warm tender lap,
Seeing tall shadow everywhere I go,
Who is this? Silence replied strictly-No,
Dazzling,dazzling lightheaded stranger,
Glittering, glittering gourgeous fresh nature,
Fainting, fainting, hold me true hope,
Keep soul closer, putting on robe,
Take me away, straighten my day,
Bless the beginning or destroy all the way.


The Light or True Light, shining stronger upright,
Don`t take me away in the mid of my way,
Didn`t earn nothing, half empty inside,
Mercy my children, take away pride,
Guide me in bringining them up, Holy Master,
Clean cloths of sinfullness a little bit faster,
Hear me, hear me ,visible hand,
Lifting me up to forgivnesses land,
Grant the repentence before last inhailing,
Bless at the end the last thin exhailing,
Praising your name, uncalled sinfull guest,
Grant me sweet piece on compassionate chest.

To you

Sparkling dew on the morning green grass,
Opening dawn from the ocean glass,
Rising and shining, eternal old sky,
Tell me the future,straight deep church choral,
Predict how waves of my destiny`ll flow,
The sound gives echo,blue water will glow,
I see deemed big footprints on a sand of the bank,
My heart slightly trembles and finally sank.


What you feel is a zeal,
What you think goes quick,
If you breathe underniz,
I will catch your caprice,
If you kiss overall,making general scroll,
I`ll reflect in your smile,
And stand still for a while,
Mirror, mirror,say yes,
In the future, my guest,
You appear and shine,
When I`ll hear- you`re mine!


Squiking birds sing glory in the air,
Spring fresh air landing everywhere,
Breathe in and out,turning around,
Saying -Good bye- to the wintery frost,
Drinking the final and promising toast,
Wishing a blessing for those who suffer
 From broken connections,
Be brave and get tougher,
Forgive, looking forward, forget, live today,
And find piece full  point on a bumped foggy way.



You are my breathing, the light in the dark,
humbled and shy like a wintery park,
You are the dawn and the dusk of the day,
Mercy me, mercy me closer stay .
Easter,red Easter, blessed Easter at the door,
Kiss me, gee,kiss me, i bet we `ll want more ,
Love me, just love me, do not think ahead,
Spring wind will be blowing us to the magical land,
The land of forgivness, the land without time,
The land where bird`s talk will sing :you are mine!


Baby , baby, you don`t understand,
How heart started beating on the day that we met,
Closer, closer in my poor space,
You are inside me for the rest of the days,
Your fears, your fears, let it fly far away,
Cheers, gee, cheers,meet the begging of days,
i love you , i love you inside of the womb,
Coming,fast coming, the Easter`s white tomb.

Saturday

Fresh daffodils smells in my hair,
Saint Patric`s day, joy"s everywhere,
Cold river reflects human nature,
Flow forward to scary adventure.
Spring, early spring in the city,
Sweet hug does`t make us feel pity,
Hot kiss will repel gravitation,
And attract magic sign-inspiration.
Gusty wing blew us out, it's forces
Moving forward eternity horses,
Rashing, galloping, riding with passion,
Did not finish fulfillment in session,
Bring me home,tranquility"s hanging
My temples lost felling of banging,
I see all of you- hazing color,
Priceless gift does`t cost even dollar,
Smiling eyes soaking tears of gladness,
Forgiving all nonsense and madness.


Sapphire blue sky, Sapphire blue sky,
Let me be happy in life for a while.
Transparent fresh lake, transparent fresh lake,
Reflect deep bright meaning,
Not spontaneous fake.
Mountain river, mountain river,
Chill down my crazy emotional fever.
Bubbling ocean, Bubbling ocean,
Surf me up right with a vivid  cold motion.
Quiet black sea , quiet black sea,
Sing with me Glory in minor- La, Si.

Verses

Baby, I need you , I need you, I need you,
Rolling up down on the top of the hill,
Believing that nothing in life`s simple deal,
Tossing and turning, waiting for dawn,
Throwing out heavy black stone,
Singing with jays the beginning of days,
Eating the curse,calling for nurse,
Melody-dolche and tempo together,
Undressing the shirt in a hot windy weather,
Embrace me, free nature, I`m child of black see,
Spray out the joy, I will answer-Merci.


Crawling in mud, cutting the bud,
Swimming in ocean of bitter emotion,
Trying to stand, slipped at the end,
Straggle in waves, lost in the maze.
Mercy me , mercy me, True Theotokos,
Show one bright unforgettable focus,
Cleanse  dirty roads of past, smiling tender,
Marie, my shield, I will deeply surrender,
Smiling and shining blue  angel will fly,
Bringing the joy to the marvelous sky.

Sad eyes

Your eys uncover sadness in a corner,
White rose smels like kiss from lips to lips,
Sharp goose bumps disappeared,
Warmer,warmer arising all from head to fingertips.
My inner space split up, don`t know how
To make it whole,Lord,have mercy me,
And help me rich your mainly purpous goal,
While soul humbly weeping -Se la vi.

verses

Foggy, foggy, humid wet place,
Sunny,Sunny,your footprints are traced,
Rainy,rainy,wet coat of used cat,
Freezing,freezing,an empty duet,
Frosting,frosting,gliters with pain,
Snow,snow,came down in vain,
Melting,melting,my heart in your thoughts,
Boiling, boiling uptight road`s knots,
Sweaty,sweaty, your palm in my hand,
Windy,windy, intentions on land,
Colder, colder,evaporates flame,
Spring flowers blooming in God`s holy name.

Naked inside,
Freezing and bite
Thin bumpy lips,
Lord, give me tips,
If I fall on a road,
Grant me patience-your coat.
Warming up in a snow,
Neglegent in a row,
March towards nowhere,
Dont`t regret, don`t copaire,
Haven, hell changing places,
In between human races,
Bless me Father, I`m begging,
And forgetting your nagging,
Not yet dead under frost,
Paying all dirty cost .

verses

Swimming  on life waves,
Diving in sins,
Going up- breaking the wings,
Breathing through happiness-
Not enough air,
Slimy, stink words instead praise everywhere,
Foggy cool dawn with a childish first scream,
Stretching till dark, weeping old lady dream,
About the novel with earthly adventure
With peace feeling strange,
Against human nature.
Nonsense, insanity, Lord, help me see,
Your wisdom in unity, which is called -we.

New Spring

When he steps on me , steps on me,
Give me the air,
Love me, dear, inside,
Hear, dare you , dare.
When I cry overnight,
Lick small tears from wet neck,
Kiss me all the way through-
At the beach, on a deck,
Give me part of yourself,
Little, tiny, thin piece,
Love me , baby , tonight ,
And fulfill my caprice.


My dear, my dear,
Don`t tend, never went,
To dissolve in a mess.
You appear unless
My stupidity flame
Gives your soul a shame.
I know for now
Flight together somehow`ll
Bring us closer  and closer,
And velocity forcer`ll
Throw high in the air.
Dear love, where,where
Final stop, breaks are broken,
What the price, golden token?
Let me ride with a passion,
Never mind my confession ,
I will bowl down later,
Let me go ,the gaiter.