Последнее прости Пеня

Я пробегу по самому по дну,
Я подойду поближе подойду,
Иголки, пакеты, дым от огня,
Зависимость, зависимость,
Не трогайте меня

Ты был , ты любил , ты спал, ты мечтал,
Детей наплодил , тепла недодал,
Обманывал, хваля, обманывал,  любя,
Зависимость ,зависимость,
Нет дыма без огня.

Ты сидел на игле , как рыба в воде,
Ты пил , ты курил, в сумасшествии был,
Играл,  и страдал, гласу не внял,
Обколотый но добрый, Богу не покорный.

Молился и пил , кололся и выл,
Ты дьяволу молился, а Бога позабыл.
Поздно просыпаться и опохмеляться,
С кумаром надо драться до шороха могил.

Уйди улети , дорога позади,
17 буйных лет, и буря впереди,
17 драк в кровяк , семнадцатый обстрел,
Семнадцатый кабак , не это мой удел.

Пошёл , улетел , не встретил, как хотел,
Меня совсем забыл, несчастный твой удел,
Ушла , перешла, над пропастью пошла,
Летела в неизвестность, в беспомощность душа.

Конец милый мой , прощай, Господь с тобой,
Покроет и помилует Христос наш дорогой,
Покроет и помилует Христос наш дорогой,
Прощай , милый мой , прощай, Господь с тобой.

Вечернее размышление

Живи, цвети во славу Бога
И не суди себя так строго,
Бутоны цветом налились
И плодоносить собрались.
Благословен рассвет багряный,
Ты молод ,стар ли-вечно пьяный
Благоуханием весны,
Зимою- пряностью сосны,
А летом-сено на откосе
Зальётся скатертью ,ты босый,
Нагой ,очищенный закат,
Любовью вечною объят,
Приймёт меня ,склоняюсь низко,
Грехи, потери, старость близко,
Прости ,омой ,благослови
Пасхальным звоном одари.
Осенний свет свежит печалью
И озаряет вечной далью,
Палитра красок хороша,
Налита зрелостью душа.
Природа и погода вместе
В ансамбле слаженном невесте
Дары ,щедроты принесут,
Мгновеньем молодость вернут.

I am waiting for you

My necessity, path , my adorable flight,
Let me imagine what`ll happen , it might,
Throw the forehead over your bridge ,
The road is sleazy , the life is a bitch .
Give me the faith in a depth of despair,
Be with me, honey, dare you,dare.
Baby, my soul is drawn in you,
Foggy and rainy , it`s not de ja vu,
I am tiered  and damned  in the middle of flight,
Tell  me the temple will grow, it might,
Tell me the tales, make it up,two bright faces,
Will show us Mighty magnificent traces-
Tall gorgeously mountain, climb with me, friend,
Let us dissolve in the destiny`s end.


Sprained little muscle, left foot feeling numb,
Sparkling tossing is making me dumb
In front of your quiet dispassionate chest,
Relax, dear friend, being relevant guest,
Not caring about my kids and my love ,
Don`t teach me to get unattached from above,
My women inside  loves through nature, in verses,
In musical kisses-erotic hot courses,
In dancing, in swimming, in suffering straight
The empty dry night-broken tough fate.
It riches up high and below the waist,
Giving you young sweet refreshment of taste.
My Jewish  big eyes deeply bound with God ,
Will smack frozen spots on your soul with sword.
When you are coming inside on magnificent ride,
My fate will not let you just quietly slide,
The craziness doesn`t allow my eyes
 To close and see you or simply be wise.
Calm down, breathe deply, the angel will come
And take us to hear the voice of strict drum.

another stress

Crazy,ridiculous,covered with blood,
Killed in a birth, being only a bud,
My youth, dear childhood, living inside,
Cover me,blankets are warm, painful bite-
My marriage, my boundle with sharp metal knife,
Not vanishing out, cursed drawn life.
Flaming the roots-Jerusalem's cross,
Beat me with mercy,I`m weak, son Hristos
Paid all of prices ,resurrected in heaven,
Count temptations-seventy seven,
Forgive to infinity, limit exists,
My function is curvy like piano wrist,
It`s ready to be intagrated with love,
To calculate space of existence above.

Holly week

The clouds formed hands, hanging down through the sky,
Fresh air evolves crusifiction`s deep cry,
Spreading saint hands on the scariest cross ,
Embracing the world with tough love, son Hristos,
Taking the slaps on his face with a prayer,
Save us , the sinners, dare you,dare.
Blood and saint water from broken saint rib,
From Earth into hell -dangerous trip,
Otset on dried from the suffering lip
Don`t let me be shallow, transform into deep
Earth for salvation, ocean for love,
Shine in our hearts as you shining above.

Stressed out

I can`t believe that you don`t care,
While I am down, where,where
Your kind wide smile and warmest hands?
Don`t think the story simply ends,
Don`t want to feel sharp pain in mind,
All therapies already tried:
The gym, my poems, nothing helps,
Can`t pray,t books`re dusty  laying on the shelves,
My kids are busy with fast games,
Poor head is spinning with ,a  names
Of people who just cursed my trust,
Sincerity, servere gust
Wild storm took shaky head away,
The soul growled on the bay,
Dissolving in a stormy ocean
Of crazy middle day emotions.
You are sleeping, guardian angel prays
To recognize the crossing ways.

Gloomy gray sky is crying in rain,
Seventeen years killed with needles in vain ,
Blamed for accusing, sanity loosing,
Forgiveness not choosing, straighten the fist ,
Not for injection, for children protection,
Soul`s correction, open blank list,
Start morning prayer till evening, despair
In horror`ll run out and show its back,
Take care of loved ones, alive hardly bear,
Hang up all washed clothed of grief on the rack.


Purplish bushes are blooming in spring,
Sweet tasty mushes are fluffing my wing,
Vicious hard pushes,cruel wide swing,
Vanishing slowly from destiny ring.
Eternal  deep circle- caring love,
Feels like high  vocal, enormously tough .
Giving away the inside of red heart,
Waiting for pinch from abandonece dart,
Blooming white bushes,spred sweet aroma,
Don`t let me hear Arabic o var .

Scared

You scared me more than I am in the verse,
Enjoying the moment- not spiritual course,
Not having to care and longing to love
Will close the gate of Saint Heaven above.
What is the purpose of life from your side?
Getting the pleasure on the everyday ride?
Fun, no questions, the pay off will come
And throw us out, making just numb,
Our feelings and souls ,emptied inside,
Will be tasting the hell wine with mouthes dried .
Mercy yourself, stop thinking this way,
The path  will work out itself , if we pray. 

In Love

Thinking of you every breath , every moment,
Living the life and being in space,
Trying my best, putting on bonnet,
To look like French lady, later`ll tell you the rest,
Waiting for tune on the phone to ring,
Teaching the class and vocally sing,
Smiling inside while imagining ocean,
Sinking in deep springiest emotion,
Planing the dinner, dancing hip hop,
Body thinner and thinner,
Let me climb on the top,
Love me, my dear, your youth will return,
Reflecting in beer, leaving red burn
On your sensitive skin, no wounds, no pain,
Sharp scarps will be  vanished  under weeping love rain.

After Easter

My candle`s light in your despair
Is shining bright ,vanilla`s smell
Will turn the fog away, I dair
It`ll let us live in love and dwell.
Your straight response without feelings
Made me truly understand,
You don`t have sirious strong willings,
That`s why I`ll follow command.
From who? Not dropping paranoya,
Not covering myself with lyes,
We`ll never fit in ship of Noya,
With killing children-young sweet pies,
They`ll look like blood from women`s womb,
My love , I beg you, please think twice,
Saint  God`s commandments seem like Troya,
When we are throwing the dice.
Dimmed candle`s light, please, give me hope,
To stay with you in closed embrace,
Which`s called in English an elope
Until the end of crossing ways. 


Lighter and lighter, your shining state sense,
Younger and younger,  making me dance,
Hotter and hotter the current uphigh,
Happier, happier, riching the sky.
Love me, my dear, holding in hands
The piece of inside on the left never ends,
Bless waving ocean through the window glass,
Warmer and warmer, embrace me, the grass.

Too much love can kill you

Freddy Mercury
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EceOhfqYQhw

I am a slave of cursed white flash and crazy thoughts,
My mind is burning from comparison with slots,
I am far away from home, feel like taking shot of rom,
And fill up the space with sparkling white dots.

Too much love can kill you,
If you won`t  make up your mind,
The children `re asking ,will you,
Crash with stress  on other side?
The angel strictly calling,
You are blessed and must obey,
Too much love can kill you everyday.

I was born on warmest bank of wide black sea,
My metal fate continue struggle, you will see,
Feeling guilty every breath, give me rest on hairy chest,
And tender  love me...


Too much love can kill you,
If you won`t  make up your mind,
The children `re asking ,will you,
Crash with stress  on other side?
The angel strictly calling,
You are blessed and must obey,
Too much love can kill you everyday.

I was taught to pray and be with mighty Lord,
He is carrying you on shoulders ,risen God,
You are a child, a lamb , a sinner,
Never be on earth a winner,
 Take your spot.


Too much love can kill you,
If you won`t  make up your mind,
The children `re asking ,will you,
Crash with stress  on other side?
The angel strictly calling,
You are blessed and must obey,
Too much love can kill you everyday.


I fall in love as crazy as the wild spring bird,
Fly away and listen destiny`s accord,
My soul whispers in your ear,
But we are not exactly near,
Far from God.


Too much love can kill you,
If you won`t  make up your mind,
The children `re asking ,will you,
Crash with stress  on other side?
The angel strictly calling,
You are blessed and must obey,
Too much love can kill you everyday.

Not fulfilling marriage promises at all,
Suffer now, carry heavy sins filled ball,
It will bounce of the ground,
You confess and deeply bound,
With high goal.


Too much love can kill you,
If you won`t  make up your mind,
The children `re asking ,will you,
Crash with stress  on other side?
The angel strictly calling,
You are blessed and must obey,
Too much love can kill you everyday.

Lost parakeet

The first deep lost, twenty dollars -the cost,
Say sadly good-bye,don`t despair, just try.
Lost childish dream,echo from scream,
Pure tear`s fast stream, no grown up`s grim.
 Calm down , my baby,in life more than may be,
Huge loses, deep wounds will touch poor heart.
 Bird sings free in the nature,acquiring adventure,
Learn to take care of it and be smart,
Blue parakeet is highly singing,
To our Lord,the song it`s bringing
 Easter bells midnightly ringing,
Risen indeed the croud voice swinging

Night

Night in the forest, the nature is dreaming,
Share with me the sound of night,
Wise fluffy owl histericly screaming,
Standing out from piece, hanging cunny aside.
No light , no power only the voices
Inside of my soul, taking the turns,
Asking and answering, making wild choices,
Not counting rules and appropriate norms.
Give me the light in the darkness of forest,
Walk backwards and forward, on he legs, on the head,
Afer the work day let deep night sweet rest,
To cover your tiredness ,lying in bed,
Remember me ,Gee, doesn`t matter what happens,
The future will show and answer for us,
For now, relax, looking forward and glow,
Reading my verses on the greenish spring grass.

Survere

Severe, severe, 

Summer storm`s coming near,
Throwing stones, 

Darkening  tones.

I`m frozen, alive. 

Wind sharply swinging,
Thunder bomb ringing,

Destiny "s bringing survival . I strive.

Call me, my dear, 

Here and near, 

Living in messy chaotic old den .
Write on my path with your magical pen .

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The mountain's tall, fall on my head,
Chill down  with a snow ,all reddish and mad,
In the state of my mind, -

Unforgettable  ride.

The mountain's  top, lift me up high,
I 'm urned inside out,  touching the sky
Through songs and in verses, settle me straight,
The pure is  ruth, I 'm  itchy to wait.

The ocean's cold, take me away,
Over horizon, the  mysterious way ,
Bubbly waves , sweet- bitter its taste,
Surfing  in  motion, on the pleasant  emotions,
Throwing out all old dirty waste.

Swimming on dawn`s road, sailing , the boat,
Turn to the  East, Say- Glory, fold wrists,
Damn rainbow in the West, run away , cross the chest,
Sing :"Love you " up high,you are silent, not mine .

After the hospital

Pressing and pressing on breaks, it`s depressing,
Hospital`s wait makes you feel every slide,
Towards shady side, spicy smoothy light dressing
Will add burned sensation to the  everyday ride.
Mercyful,mercyful God, let me suffer,
Don`t touch the kids,their innocent cry
Will force to get rid of myself,being toughfer,
Knowing how, when, where and why.
Step on hot snake,horrible rabbies
Inside of kid`s mind will make you regret,
Spitting the dirt on the pressious young babies,
 Demanding firm cosience would never forget.
It`s easy to say , not to do,dear angel,
Guide me through teared nasty tight knott,
My feelings is hurt, the spirit is fragile,
Cover me, cover with painful pin-shot,
Pure vaccine will stop for a moment
Abdominal pain, slow temper, my heart
Will be calmer with you waiting for comment,
Prepairing itself for another sharp dart.

Who am I to you , my darling?

Tell me , baby, who I am,
Just temptational hot slam?
Who am I to you, my darling,
Lips dried up today, stop smiling,
We need to make right way, it`s painful,
The soul feels completely grateful,
Take away the passion, bowl,
The animals`ll shut up, not growl,
Piece amd love will come again,
Don`t spred out it in vain.

I need these questions answered,dear,
It`s sunny, no clouds near,
You are to me like shining sun,
But something forcing you to run.
Who `am I on your bumpy road?
Don`t tell me ,that the russian goat,
Don`t keep your mouth tightly shut,
I know, that you have a gut
To talk as straight as loud strings,
And cut my wounded spring wings.
You can say nothing , I will wait,
And pray to all the saints in scielence,
Already went through cruel violence,
Desicions ought to be not rushly made.
You are confused, I understand,
The soul`s naked on a stand,
Forgive us, Mercyful Wise Grace,
Add up in cup Lord`s pure taste.

Ten push ups, jump higher,N sit ups, admire,
You are making me fit like a fish in the lake,
Stupidity`s growing,in messages showing
Hidden black holes, spontanuos shake.
Forgive me, can`t carry the loud on the surface,
Forgive me,too open, desiring too much,
Forgive me, at night lovely image-movable  bright face,
Letters and thoughts seems to be very large.
Writing in gym, in the class, on the road,
While waiting for kids,or starting to cook,
Give me your caring white pure coat,
Before stricking feelings will give me a shoot.

First day after spring break

Easter red egg, easter blue egg,
Resurection bright sign,Church colored bag,
Enlighten my road in pinkish nice tone,
Save us in Noy`s boat,
Cross path almost shown,
Growing smiles,thoutfullness,wise,
Keep dreaming , my friend,
Play with me in a band,
Be with me, Gee, inside of my space,
Warm as could be, marvelous place.


A week , is this the longest hanging wise step,
Or hidden inside of your head biting trap?
Holly week, we will always remember ,
 The suffering cross,red robe, bitting temper,
We`ll cry with Maria and berry with Iosiph,
Saint Nikodim  bringing the oils, the gossip
About the stealing dead crucified flesh
Reached all generations, throwing trash-
All old evil deeds from the soul washed out,
Help us to carry this purity moment.

End of Spring break

Growing,growing flowers,showing
The beauty of world wise creation ,with love
Anything`s possible, stones sing, glossible
Sky talking misticly, shining above.
Opening wings, not cut sharply by spouse,
In stuffy big cage, eager to fly,
Let me escape in transparent white blouse,
Over tall mountain, reaching the sky.
Take me as far as your mind can imagine,
Love me and carry through hole`s dark rock,
Red juicy soure summer ripe cherry
Will taste like sweet pudding, giving you shock.
Fly with me ,dove, over horison,
Where beautiful sun is arising and see,
Intersection of traces from planes, advertising
Attached strong connections ,named with word we.
Do not look far down on glittering road,
The birds will repeat harmonical  song,
My verses sincerely talking,the poet
Will whistle the tune with a name "We Belong".


Spring break, my spring break,
Waste it or take it without a fake.
Feels like it has  been more than a month,
By amout of verses, exploded at once.
Seems as we haven`t been really talking,
From eyes into eyes wired melody charged
My magnetical field with electrical shocking,
Clouds of energy wildly enlarged.
Invisibly, tenderly whisper small portions
Windy short phrases- shadow`s side,
Freezing aand listening, turning down emotions,
Preparing soul for  the holy week ride.

Palm Sunday

The nature`s bathing in the ray,
The clouds on Palm Sunday spray
Wet drops of gratefulness, Hristos
Is entering with praising,cross
Is being made for him already,
On earth we never being ready
To suffer ,die, for resurection,
The galaxies away from nations
Will transfer us through milky way,
In never ending risen day.


Falling stars, falling stars,
Paths of the destinies,shining red Mars
Covered with rust-memory ashes,
Zodiac signs-significant dashes ,
Between you and me, huge cultural space,
Constellation of we hasn`t been born, in a days
Connected small dots will be drawn on the sky,
New road, new story, where you became mine.


Black shadow, short haircut,
Half closed eyes in church, a nut?
Where are your image coming from?
You want to be in prayers? Bom-
Spread out voice of metal bell ,
It`s calling for your soul, well
You overslept the most of it
In alcoholic -drug damn beat.
You`re crying now for salvation,
Help me pray, the gravitation
Holds the body thin and straight,
Don`t cry , he does deserve it, wait,
Shiny bluish  morning sky,cover me,
 Annoying shadow,
Doesn`t let me smell spring meadow,
Christ is risen, simply smile, dissolve in nature for a while.

Easter

Hristus resurecsit a mortu is,
The angel is singing, no bravo or biss,
Light through the dark in a crowed church,
Candles are crying for us, black sharp torch
On the licking old roof covers with glitter,
The current is shining with tears ,it`s bitter,
Grateful wise smile from the sinful cut heart,
Without considering deeds, beeing smart
Is a priveledge given from Heaven for free,
Jump ,speeding start feels like sting from spring bee.

Confusion gone, transquilent breeze,
Waves`re calm transparent undernis
The neck, warm tender feeling is whispering,
My hands are chilling.What is it, the sign of God,
Forgivness?No , it`s too hot.
Where is it coming from,
The current strong as metal chrom?
It`s shining right inside my heart,
Healing marks from cruel dart,
It`s writing verse insted of me and singing:
Love you, dear,Gee!

Who are you?

Who are you? Branch for the sanking despair,
 Lover,true friend, or temptation? Please, bear,
My current of crazyness- electroshock,
Better than lazyness` simple dull rock.
Where are we? Not at the church` praying service,
All movements slowly making me nervous,
Anxious, histerical, clear the space,
Inside of the temple, throw out the waiste,
Dirty wet clothes ,washed out with love,
It will cover you,angel, hold me above.


Postponded once, postponded twice,
It`ll help us trully recognize
The price and weight of small ansamble,
Or make me all below humbled.
Thank you,dear, strongest breaks
Will add the spicy young fresh taste
For you and me? Or single dish?
Van Gouh, Dali-romantic wish.

Shallow feelings

Shallow feelings, shallow shore,
Mellow kisses, the flash wants quite more,
Dear, my dear, I will climb any wall,
For you to be near,sharp mountain tall,
With rivers and meadows-everyday tasks,
On the way through my path from sweet dawn to the dusk.
The life is the mountain,carring the cross,
Falling and shouting,climbing on tross,
Cutting the skin over emptyness edge,
Healing the wounds of any size rage,
From careless people, forgotten old sins,
Cruelty actions, sarcastic old grins.
Life is wide river, cleaned water -my health
Survive in the dirtyness and keep mighty wealth.

After liturgy

Sweet childhood,blessed childhood,dream childhood above,
Shining brightly,  breathing lightly,  giving ,gifting  passionate  love,
Transparent straight thoughts,graduation facstrots,
First broken  date,my permanent fate.
Have Mercy ,Marie, I don`t want to sin,
Adultery-awful, akward sharp pin,
Help to sand up, confess, cry and pray,
The path to salvation through wounds conveid,
Bluish full color-Theothokos` bright cloth,
Inside of my eyes, bless me , Hristos.

Question

Did I make it up,the story,inside my mind, ot this is true?
Am I acting in a worry, or we will last? I wish we do.
Does everything inside my mind pretend, or hurtful feelings right?
Sincere answer:yes and no, it maybe rainy, looks like snow,
Mixed up, confused, depressed and damned by stupid actions cruel slam.
Don`t see the exit from the stage, my feelings being outradged.
Talk to me, two heads together might predict correctly weather,
The forcast`s good, be happy , Gee, and don`t dissolve in nostalgi.


Histerical cry over stupid straight words,
Written in vain, dispair`s damn cords,
Too deep in my heart, can`t ever be smart,
Too painful to stop, big tears drop and drop,
Calm down, high fever- a sign of the sickness, my friend,
An abandonence- salty deep river, small boat inside it- broken duet.
Forgive me, my baby, for going crazy, it isn`t your fault in any small way,
White-yelloish summer guessing fresh dazzy will tell me your secret for sure today.

Blushed pinkish face in the mids of the days,
Teenager`s crazyness,knotted curved ways,
Shame under skin, marvellous dream,
Current through chest,morden spring vest,
I feel, years are dropping below the line,
Going backwards, high slope decline.
Poems and whispers inside of my mind,
Burning all ashes from suffering side.
Mercy me, baby, say something good,
It`s lent, words don`t sin, so, I hope you would.

Mountain

Shallow feelings, shallow shore,
Mellow kisses, the flash wants quite more,
Dear, my dear, I will climb any wall
For you to be near, sharp mountain's tall
With rivers and meadows - everyday tasks,
In  the way to my path from sweet dawn to the dusk.

The life is a mountain, carrying the cross,
Falling and shouting,crawling on tross,
Cutting the skin over emptiness edge,
Healing the wounds in the very old age.

From careless people, forgotten old sins,
Cruelty actions, sarcastic wild grins.
Life is a river, clean water will help
To survive in the dirtiness with a glittering shelf.

Good News

Saint Gabriel sings joyful new baby song,
For the Virgin,the sacraments` magics belong
To the people above and beyond on a planet,
No owners ,humbled and sinful small tenants,
On fruitful from tears beautiful Earth,
I will pray to Maria, rejoice and rejoice.

Mountain

Morning light`s rays over forest`s tall pines,
The current of gratefulness  peacefully shines,
From the vase, holding  tulips, inside of my heart,
Spreading smell of fresh feelings,giving out a part
To  you, dear angel, be blessed, pray with us,
Victorious George shining bright through the glass.


You are my breathing, the light of my life,
Come closer and closer , let me survive,
It seems that I know you more than a month,
Dimmed fate will not fool me for  more than at once.

My dear, my dear, why you are not near,
The air is filled with a poisonous gas,
My hope, my hope, in a circle elope,
Everyday's nonsense, broken sharp glass.

Raining or shining, my spirit is climbing
Towards the Golgotha - the suffering death,
The body is mining, while soul is striving,
With hideous creatures, handling stress.
.

Up on big mountain, climbing through snow,
Down the hill, overturn, run or go,
Mountain of caring, mountain of love,
Warm sun is up high, not close enough.

Slippery hill of big and small sins,
Sliding was easy but filled with sharp pins,
From my conscience - truthful voice of the Lord,
The bridge to salvation, eternity cord,
Listen in silence, fall down on your knee,
Saint Sirin`s prayer as 10 stings from the  bee.

Don`t judge other sinners, just me on a stand,
Kneel your head on the cross, don`t ever pretend,
Be merciful to me, a sinner,
The nature blooming greener , greener,
You will forgive, I `ll go free, but will be paying, se la vi.

I love you

Sprinkled cold water on white sweaty skin,
Slimmed shivered sensation, take out the grim,
Here I am in a rainbow light,
Singing a song in arising delight.
What do you feel, puzzle with maze?
Is it marvelous zeal in the mid of the days?
Tell me tomorrow, sincere loved guest,
Open up wide on  passionate chest.


The tune of my heart, heard in words from the verse,
Play louder, brown slim beautiful horse,
Will take us aside from the crazy wild word,
Reigning with joy, playing major accord.
The harmony`s echo are calling spring  birds,
My parakeets`re kissing, opened pink shirt on my breast tighten the forms,
You are moving too slow following norms,
Can`t wait till tomorrow, singing a song,
Birds voices will answer high notes- ding dong.

First visit to jail

I gave you everything,the dragon,
Your multiheads-addictions wagon,
Drove over fresh alive young plants,
And killed it right inside your pants.
You`re hissing now in the cage,
My curse , it does`t sound strange.
Don`t bale the dragon to the air,
Let him sit and suffer there,
The children will not understand,
My soul long ago went through flaming hell,
Sharp loud Easter metal bell
 I s calling to stand up and pray,
The dragon, get the  hell away.


Curvy bumped road,shining saint light,
Shaking old boat, full moon`s blinking bright.
Wolves in the dark- wild scary voice,
Hungry big shark in the ocean noise,
Ready to gobble you up , no doubt,
Put on a spot, I will drastically shout:
Have mercy , my God, shocked heart  guided  wrong,
I will bear alive, you are making me strong.


Animal`s movement, animal`s arms,
Who are you lion, making wild harms,
Worm, tiger, snake? Your stupid dark fake
Does `t have any charm,
The prison-state farm
Will not change your mind,
Go forward on slide,
Blame me for giving away young fresh life,
Tell on me, don`t let children survive,
Judge me , accuse, one more purple bruise,
Not under the eyes-cruel surprise.
Have mercy on us, hopeless souls bright hope,
Push the hater away with long patience blessed rope,
Give me the strength inside of weak heart,
Teach me to love, to forgive and be smart.


Yellow robe, yellow face,
Sarcastic old grins-pains wrinkled trace,
Cruel sharp words from the dark lying lips,
Pupils- wide swords of drugs crossing trips.
Marie, have mercy, not blessed marriage had crashed,
Confused sinful daughter, your spouse is lashed.
Pray for my children , hurted enough,
Give me your hand on the road with rough
Obstacles, puddles, icicles help,
We will thank every moment, being much overwhelmed.

I still miss you

It`s burning to wait for the phone to ring,
Thin nerves tighting up in a sol minor string,
Hot waves up and down through abdomen pain
Will push faster puls in the purpelish vein.
Momental wide smile through the dug earth of soul
Will change with wild weep and darkened like coal.
The sound of your voice playing musical solo,
My arms feel like they`re  finally playing the polo,
Short, stricked, quick notes will give me the tone
To write and stay up till the beautiful dawn,
Arising and loving for sure or not,
Help me reach blue horizon, caring pilot.


Red headed woodpecker on a blooming white brench,
Young couples, cute children , observed from the bench,
Joyful  fast run,waving cold  bank,river- wide life, ship is not sanked.
Walking up, running fast,fresh new start, always guest.
Holly home,be with me, in hurted soul, hear ,Gee,
Be strong and tender,kind and wise,
And saint promissing angelic senfer
Will make you happy more then twice.



Smiling,it`s force and reflection of light,
Piling, deep feelings ,colored freshly and bright,
Missing, your care through long working week,
Kissing, the shadaw in the waterfall brick,
Scilencing,words loosing warms in your mind,
Bouncing, magical ball to the right.
Calling and calling,writing a verse,
Taking teenagers` spiritual course.

Children of God-Happiness Pile

Holding the baby three tiny weeks old,
Pinkish thin skin costs more than the gold,
Opened blue eyes looking wisely inside,-
'Who are you, lady, I am starting the ride'.
Small dotted rash on her cheeks from the sweat,
Cold piano fingers might play in duet,
Shivering helpless sensation spred out,
'Help me survive'.They will do, no dout.
Have you lived in a Heaven or somewhere else,
Your mother with joy gladly gave you a chance.
You all , tiny babies, unborn, killed , unneeded,
Not loved , not desired or being breast feeded,
Remember us , instantly making relations,
Not thinking about new genarations.
Fulfilling all passions firing flame,
Remember us, guide crazy instics in game
To the road with flowers blooming through smile-
Children of God-happiness pile.

I miss you

Don`t cry, when your heart getting hurt, don`t ask why,
Don`t regret about blown in air duet, you`ll forget,
Don`t weep ,when the prayers sincerely deep,
Will put you below in sank dirty sheep.
Don`t complain, when you soul will go  insane,
Do not get depressed under destiny rain.
Don`t curse, when they fool you around, the worse
Is the person ,who lies form deseas,shits ,like horse,
Addicted to everything,falls undernis
And dies as a human, fulfilling capris.
Don`t lose true belives, when saint hope and love
Will kiss you good -bye, flying further above.
Do bless every morning, eternal bright sun
Will straiten you up, despair will run.



It`s freezing inside, no sentual breathing,
It`s snowing, gray graphic art on  white drawing,
It`s gusting, not visible ghost everlasting,
It`s hurting, help me survive stupid flurting,
It`s biting, love stings on cracked skin-evil tiding,
Be gratfull, bless the Lord, you are not overhatefull,
Say -Glory,don`t feel for yourself neither pity nor sorry,
Sing- Love You,sweet dove is kissing above you,
Write-Dear,your hope will return ,staying near,
Pray humbly, the angel will smile close by,
And force dull bored sadness to kiss you good bye.

My feelings

Walking or driving,
Swimming or diving,
Weeping and laughing,
Circlish dance.
Building, destroying,
Funny and boring,
Hurting, enjoying-
Destiny chance.
Childhood, adulthood,
Teenager and baby,
I always was wondering,
Asking the rebbe,
Why sorrows and worries do not grow fruits,
Fed by my tears and striked by heart`s shoots?
Why people you love so often don`t care
About inside hurtfull piece of my heart?
They judge fast firstsightly, use and compare,
Throwing with pleusure magnetic sharp dart.
The wounds are healing when everything given
Away, no waiting to get warm big hug in return,
The science of compassion was trustfully gifted,
Send all big haters as far as Saturn.





Closer and closer your hands on my waist,
Spreding fantastic harmonical taste,
Hazy rays-wires of magical base,
Inspireing music behind happy face,
The music of words in sincere short rhyme,
Look at me now and over the time,
The time of rejections abandonence, fly,
Take me with you over marvelous sky.


Alive,alive, to the end strive and strive,
Straiten the torth, arms high up with a force,
Move round the hips,open the lips,
Imagine the light,eat sweet delight.
You are breathing with me
Over miles,dear, we
Mixing up in the air,
No clothes to wear,
You in me all, swallen sick mind,
Mountain tall,unfogettable sight.

Spring break

When worries pounds in the temples,
My heart is beating faster, trembles,
The chilly ocean cleans dark thoughts,
From stamps of griefs and painfull dots.
White crackling sea gulls always take
All empty feelings, sudden fake,
The ocean wind will blow stronger
And make my soul`s torcher longer.
Sharp tanny sand inside my eyes
Will help me grow wiser twice,
Surf board, tight shiny tank and pants
Attract your warm and tender hands,
My smile will sing spontanuos tune
About nature, sun and moon
 In intersection`re shining brighter,
My soul feels much better, lighter,
I see your image in the water-
Saint`s blessing on a sinfull daughter.


Candel`s dimed light, blinking and bright,
Shine on my path,stepping gently with care,
Falling in love, Jesus, dare me , dare,
Help to stand up and look at your face,
What will I see, strict grin or the grace?
Blame me with mercy, don`t punish the boys,
My stupid mistakes were not their choice,
Cover all dark imperfections with love,
Blessed light of red Easter fired above,
Risen in Heaven, came down to hell,
Saved us on the cross and let souls dwell.
Indeed he is risen, sharp echo repeats,
Enjoy, life will sprinkle with sweet tasty treats.


Death, ashy death through the storms,
Does not have strict borders with norms,
Sanking crashed ship was broken and used,
On old saving boats crue members`re acused,
Cops searched for crime traces, found the needles,
Blue packeges opened , not candies for kiddles,
Poisoness dope- the sperm of the devil,
Doesn`t let passengers piecfully travel.
Conseptions glues passion for stricking again,
Puss on poked painfull opened red vein,
Abstinence, nausia, depression, smoked patt,
Leave black cracked holes inside of my heart.
Jesus, I beg you, forgive , I escaped
From devil`s damned ship, you Mother had prayed.


Weakness and tierdness- sister and brother,
Despair-old wrinkled , ugly damn mother,
Pride with jelocity crown their father,
Passion and sins, big and small, their kids,
Opened , uncovered, in cans no lids,
Smelly deep puddles on spring melted snow,
Swampy green liquid,snake`s hiss will grow,
Hot wanum in its bite is killing me slow,
Heaven fall down and teach to say -No.

First Sunday by Myself

Dingaling, lingering -  rain on a glass,
Twinkling, twinkling - frogs on a grass,
Chirping and   chirping -  the parakeets' song
Kanon repeats with a metal  - ding-dong.

Ringing and  ringing - Risen indeed,
Staccato, arpeggio - holiday beat,
Firing, firing t- the trice , Easter ' s flame,
Crossed round procession in Your Holy Name:

Resurrected from earth into Heaven, the Son,
Bless us with  a nature through everyday run:
At work and at home, while sleeping in peace,
Clean up dirty clothes - the laziness's  grease,
Give us tomorrow the lesson of love,
Shine bright in our hearts as You shining above!

****


Blooming white, blooming pink,
The trees are in spring site, birds` fluffed their wings, 
Blooming red, blooming pink- yellow,
My heart is embracing  your  with mellow,
Tiny, dimpled and shiny bright smile
It is non striking ,no breath for a while.
Lavender, green , orange and  gray,
Awakening ,blessed, the  flowers of May-You are the joy inside of  my  soul,
I step up towards crazy mystical goal,
With help of an apple - green eastern  eye,
You know who,  I am guessing why.

***



Shining night star, shining night star,
Tell me,  the truth is inside , who you are,
Aroma   hyacinth aroma hyacinth,
Turn my direction , amazing sweet wind.

Red kissing tulip, red kissing tulip,
Add color on shining from happiness lu lip,
Amur`s passion arrow, Amur passion`s arrow,
Is thrown at the end of the road with narrow,
Curvy, white shape of the cloud  - my dream,
Push me on the mountain river`s fast stream,
Morning wet fog, morning wet fog,
Evaporate nonsense, cover the shock,
Night shining star, night shining star,
Will tell me your secret and raise up the bar.

****


Vivo bravissimo,trophies, awards,
Melody - major , do sharp in accords,
Cheers in gears, winning the battle,
Making wise choices - the hardest life matter.

You presence will make poor trail even  better,
The past generations, dieing in ghetto,
Pray for us , born after hundred long years,
We are using technology , higher progress,
They wished the descendants would not be abandoned
By merciful Grace and become independent.

Pray for us all , souls murdered in stove,
So tight intersections of nations on globe,
Will love one another a bit from the heart,
Not fighting and getting incredibly smart.
You all , buerried into the earth in a hurry,
From Moscow till an Italian Barry,
Ask the Lord`s mercy for those , who suffer,
And make me inside truly taugher and taugher ! 

***

Hot boiling red wine

Feels colds when you dine,

Soft sound of your voice 

Calms down nervous noise,
The light from your eyes 

Turns destiny`s dice.

Making me change 

Gloomy image, the face,
By filling it up 

With amazing spring grace.

Smile,baby, smile,

Passed trash in big pile
Of destroyed paths" is  gone, 

Bloom nice , no throne