Stressed out

I can`t believe that you don`t care,
While I am down, where,where
Your kind wide smile and warmest hands?
Don`t think the story simply ends,
Don`t want to feel sharp pain in mind,
All therapies already tried:
The gym, my poems, nothing helps,
Can`t pray,t books`re dusty  laying on the shelves,
My kids are busy with fast games,
Poor head is spinning with ,a  names
Of people who just cursed my trust,
Sincerity, servere gust
Wild storm took shaky head away,
The soul growled on the bay,
Dissolving in a stormy ocean
Of crazy middle day emotions.
You are sleeping, guardian angel prays
To recognize the crossing ways.

Gloomy gray sky is crying in rain,
Seventeen years killed with needles in vain ,
Blamed for accusing, sanity loosing,
Forgiveness not choosing, straighten the fist ,
Not for injection, for children protection,
Soul`s correction, open blank list,
Start morning prayer till evening, despair
In horror`ll run out and show its back,
Take care of loved ones, alive hardly bear,
Hang up all washed clothed of grief on the rack.


Purplish bushes are blooming in spring,
Sweet tasty mushes are fluffing my wing,
Vicious hard pushes,cruel wide swing,
Vanishing slowly from destiny ring.
Eternal  deep circle- caring love,
Feels like high  vocal, enormously tough .
Giving away the inside of red heart,
Waiting for pinch from abandonece dart,
Blooming white bushes,spred sweet aroma,
Don`t let me hear Arabic o var .